Beauty in life

"Don't count the day. Make the days count" 

Sometimes I forgot that life is good, that today is just a bad day or a bad week not a bad life. Today was perfect, today I felt truly happy. It's the first time in a long time that all the cares and worries about everything in the world just melted away. I woke up this morning after a slight sleep in and I just felt good. I didn't have any stresses and Lucas was lying right beside me - he didn't have work today. The sun was out the both boys had had a great night sleep and were so happy and bubbly today. We decided to make today count especially since the weather gods were very kind to us today as well and delivered us some beautiful sunshine so we went to local park and both boys had a ball! Zayn loved being pushed on the swing and crawling and sliding down the slide. Kye just ran around and I saw a spark in his eyes today that has been missing the past few weeks. He could tell that things weren't great and I hate myself so much for letting it affect him. But today he was just a normal 2 year old, having fun, being a kid, without a care and that's how it should be everyday. I just adored spending time with my 3 boys as a family and smiling and laughing for real. We played at the park for a few hours before deciding to head down the beach for a paddle in the waves and some hot chips for lunch! Kye and Lucas rolled up their pants and played on the edge jumping over the waves and splashing each other, Zayn and I crawled around in the sand before going to join them. Zayn loved exploring the different textures of the wet and dry sand on his hands and knees, you could see his little brain exploring and thinking about it. By now Zayn was starting to become a little restless and tired so we decided it was time to have some lunch and let Zayn have a little sleep in the pram. Kye wanted to go back to the water and Lucas said he would stay with Zayn so I could go. I don't know why I didn't find Lucas before, why now when everything is so complicated does this decent, loving, understanding guy come into my life?If I had met him before Tom then I wouldn't have my two beautiful boys but I just wonder why did I have to go through so much to find him. It's made me appreciate him and our relationship SO much more and that relationships do take a lot of work something which i don't think I fully realised with Tom.

 Now it's nearly 7pm and our house is really quiet! Both boys have had dinner and a bath and Zayn is drifting off to sleep on the lounge as I type and Kye is next to him watching TV and very quietly and sleepily playing with his dinosaurs. They are completely worn out from all the smiles and fun we had today. Today was beautiful and I remember all the beautiful things in life today. From the smell of the salty beach air to the sounds of my boys laughing. There is beauty everywhere in life and usually it's most beautiful in it's pure and simplest form. I'm thankful for today and i'm thankful for my life, my children and my boyfriend.I'm nothing without them and I look forward to sharing tomorrow, the next day and the next 50 years with them. <3